She left us March 30th, 2008.
I feel like every trip is missing something now.
Like there's somewhere I should be rushing to... but I'm not rushing.
It's still hard for me to imagine a trip that doesn't include multiple trips to Clarence to see her, take her to the park, take her to lunch, and just spend time talking to her and being in her incredible presence.
This was her last birthday. 94 years young!
I flew home to celebrate and god am I thankful that I did. That trip was the last time she could hold my hand, kiss me and tell me how much she loved me. The next time I saw her, she was asleep. She never woke up.
I try as hard as I can to focus on the beautiful memories I have of her and not on the loss that I still feel so desperately.
But still... this trip and every trip from here on out, will always be incomplete. Something is missing.
But Michael... ahh my beautiful son... he tells me that it's all okay. "She's right here with us Mom. She's in our hearts."
Yes Michael. She absolutely is.
1 comment:
aww man brought tears to my eyes. I actually started one on my grandpa last night seems we both have the same idea,I love the pics of you and ur grandma,and Michael is right though I know how hard it is,and it never gets easier,atleast thats how I feel,So I know how you feel,and I know shes looking down at you and shes enjoying it up there..remember shes safe now,and not hurting anymore.Thats what is keeping getting through the days..Shes ur Angel :)
Good Writting I love reading ur stuff!!!!!
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